Problems of sexual addiction...confessions of a sex addict

Here is a brainstormed list of common potential problems for the sex addict as I see them. This is not an exhaustive list.

Pornography
Compulsive masturbation
Seeing prostitutes
Compulsive fantasising
Sex with multiple partners
Sex outside of marriage
Voyeurism
Exhibitionism

Here is how the author is affected by each of the above with examples...

Pornography.

Since I was 19 and I gave up smoking, I have used pornography as a means of escaping reality of insecurity around relationships and uncertainty about getting my needs met to name a couple of the possible reasons. I discovered pornography at school when a pirate video tape was swapped around and was hooked from that time. Although I had breaks from it and always felt very "wrong" - not in a guilt sense so much as in a physical, mental, emotional and spiritual sense. This tends to come in the days after using the pornography. The pleasure gained from "tuning out" of life and reality and tuning in to fantasy is extremely compelling. Despite terrible consequences (I feel as a result of my excessive use of porn) I have gone back to it time and time again. It rarely has failed to give an immense chemical pleasure "hit". I don't particularly care about the morality involved whilst I'm doing it, but there is a conflict of values in that I believe that porn is "wrong" for those involved who are vulnerable and basically have little choice. I used porn today. I know that my pornography use is way beyond "healthy" because of the obsessive nature and the compulsive "must have" lust-need for more and more of the same thing. Considering some "sessions" can last up to 7 hours and in my mind, despite the consequences of depression, ratty/angry "come-down" and feeling utterly perverted and disgusting sometimes, it still calls out to me from within like a temptation that combined with thoughts of low self esteem "my life is crap anyway, what's the point?" that seem out of my control, as the ultimate panacea which for some part of the acting out, it seems to truly be.