It's been a whole year since I last posted...

It has been a year since I last posted. I think it has been one of my less successful in terms of sobriety from sex addiction, but in terms of benefits of choosing to try to do something about my sex addiction, I have achieved a lot - like living abroad for 3 months and starting a Ph.D. program.

I am posting because I've come across a blog on sex addiction recovery on blogspot by a guy who seems like an ex-addict and has a counselling service. His articles are absolutely top notch in my opinion. He is somewhat anti-12-step program but since the 12 steps are not seeming to work for me in this addiction (or I am not working for them) I am ok about that.

Actually, I set up an SLAA group in my city with another addict and that group is still going strong, that was a couple of years ago now. I'd like to get some recovery at the moment. They say the addiction gets worse. In the last 3 months I had an insane amount of sexual partners, including sex workers.

My psychiatrist has referred me to psycho-sexual counselling. This is what he says about me:

- I would be grateful if you would consider offering this gentleman an assessment. I have been seeing him in my outpatient clinic and he has made a good recovery from a past experience of psychosis. However, he continues to struggle with a sexual addiction which is having considerable impact on his life. He describes compulsion to act out sexually with women and sex workers. In the past he has found it difficult to maintain boundaries around pornography use. He is married and has regularly tried to address his compulsions but frequently relapses. He has contact with a support group which has been helpful in the past but has never had any individual work. We have talked about some of the origins of his behaviour and he told me that when he was about 10 years old an older boy introduced him to sexual ideas, using pornography and bullied him with threats of sexual assault. It appears that some of the patterns of his current behaviours are associated with these earlier experiences He is not taking any psychotropic medication at this time and is studying for a Ph.D. In many aspects of his life, he has achieved a great deal and has stability. He told me that at times he feels quite desperate about his addiction and is well motivated to engage in some form of therapeutic intervention. -

So, there you have it. The last three months has made me realise for sure that I am a sex addict. There is just no doubt now because of the sheer amount of acting out and the feelings and insanity of it all. Recently, I completed a step 4 which I shared with a 12 step sponsor, also in recovery from alcoholism and sex addiction. This was a real release, but I have to say I acted out before and after in just as bad ways as before.

So I am seeking out counselling, psychotherapy and looking at the below blog's articles as well as attending online SLAA meetings, face to face 12 step meetings and writing this blog. The blog below is offering a free counselling session for 30 minutes.

link: http://addictioncontrol.blogspot.com/

See you anon.

SARC (Sex addiction recovery confessions blog).